This is my 4th year that I have attended school full time. As I reflect on my journey I begin to realize how burnt out I am. I feel that I have lost thought with who I am and what I love to do. My life consist of school and work. I leave my home at 7am and don't return back until 9pm. I miss coming home with nothing to do and sitting in front of the television watching "I love Lucy" and laughing my head off until my stomach hurt. I miss coming home to my husband and sitting on the coach just enjoying the moment.
The last two years have been extremely hard. Graduate school has been a challenge. Although I feel that I have grown as a human and as a professional I feel that I have also missed out on so much. I fight with my self every weekend. Do I spend time with my kids? Can I go out to lunch with my sisters? Can I enjoy dinner and a movie without thinking about a paper that is due?
All I can say is ... it's going to pay off. You're probably thinking ... "you don't know what I go through".
ReplyDeleteAnd you're right. But one think I do know what you are going through are all these classes we've been taking together.
Perhaps, the one thing you can remind yourself that you have and what is important is ... determination.
The only thing we can do is instill the determination into our kids. It's an important quality especially if we want them to continue with their education as they get older.
I remember those days, sitting on the couch, watching television with my significant other. It will all pay off, picture yourself walking stage. Soon, you will ask yourself what do I do? I always tell my students, once you are older you will wish you were younger.
ReplyDeleteThere will be time to rest.
Been there. I was new in the USA. No clue how it would pan out and other side challenges were there. Mine was sixty hours a week on a slightly above minimum wage job. I had my full course load in an MBA program. It was a call center and they hated my African accent sometimes. It was hard sometimes and then at times there were challenges on my immigration status. There were some hard days for me but luckily not too hard for GOD. I hope you have an enjoyable weekend this week. Hope you enjoyed mothers day too. I hope your degree opens many doors.
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ReplyDeleteI exactly know what you are talking about. I am actually dealing right now with very stressful situations, let alone work and school. I remember being able to enjoy a simple walk in the park or mall with my mother or friends without thinking about any pressure or stress caused by out-of-my control situations. That is not the case any more. Even though I am thankful for my good health and because I still, once in a while, have good moments, it is really hard and unusual to have good moments with complete peace. But let’s keep going, I am sure that we are already being blessed with the energy and strength to keep going and achieve our objectives. Before we know it, we will be enjoying the sweet peace that always comes after the storm.
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